Welcome to my secret blog.
Here are a few things about me:
- I keep secrets, like this blog for example. I am so secretive that I wish to be in another place where no one knows anything about me.
- I fantasized having a twin brother. We’ll switch places every other day. We’ll talk every time and we’ll share our network of friends. Of course, we’ll keep it a secret that we have a twin. If there are three of us, the better.
- People share their secrets to me. I think I have this aura where people get comfortable opening themselves. I am a good listener, and I keep secrets well. I learned how to keep secrets because in my youth, I am so wet mouthed I told mom father bought ice cream on stick for construction workers (we are building a new house that time), mom got angry because the laborers are already given snacks, apart from their salary, and our family was on a tight budget. They quarreled over it. Father told me I was wet mouthed. I feel guilty, and I told myself I’ll learn how to keep things for myself.
- I empathize with people. I have seen some deepest sadness and highest joys. I have experienced helplessness, severe poverty, desperation, depression, as well as extreme happiness. I believe my understanding of things is broad, as I got the first hand experience.
- I don’t usually like to be included in pictures, nor tagged in pictures where I appear. I am sort of anti-social.
- I love keeping diaries, dream journals, write-ups, drafts, scratch, memorabilias…
- I walk briskly – unless someone’s clinging to me that i need to slowdown.
- I get interesting dreams when i sleep – That are worth writing into full novels. Sometimes, I am very amazed the dream characters are speaking beautiful sentences, and/or the plot is very good. I wonder if it’s only my mind that creates them – or my unconscious is travelling somewhere for adventure.
- I used to stalk crushes, offline. I keep a journal where I saw who, when, what time. I skip classes to see where they live. I was that crazy. I can laugh about it now.
- I cyberstalk people, of course, online. If I’m interested about a person, I’ll dig everything the search engines could give.
- If I like someone, I get obsessed like crazy. It’s like the song, tattooed on my mind.
- I am turned-off with facial moles, especially big ones. No offense, sorry but it’s just me. They may get bigger soon, and could be cancerous. I’m scared of that to happen.
- Of course, bad breath is a real turn-off too.
- I am attracted to girls with nicely chiseled noses. They are very beautiful to look at.
- I like childish girls. They are fun to be with.
- I think, bangs show the girls’ real beauty. Bangs + how they look in the morning. Girls become prettier during the evening so I don’t believe what I see. Especially when I see them the first time.
- I want to be an assassin. There are just too many evil people in this world and I want to kill them all. It will be my pleasure. Maybe, corrupt politicians will top my lists, along with government and private officials abusive of their powers. Sometimes I want to blame my parents for the morals they instilled me I can’t do it.
- I have read mangas Death Note 1 and 2. Now I am reading Lost + Brain - as they are the same psychological/suspense/intelligence type mangas. I have finished reading all chapters of Naruto and currently watching on every Shippuden episode.
- I am bitter, most times. There are even times I wish I could die on the spot. But I believe I am still more fortunate than most people.
- My dream is to have plenty of money so I can give them away. I cannot give what I don’t have.
- I am workaholic. I can work 24 hours straight and sleep all weekends.
- I can stand 3 days without food.
- I love vegetables on the menu, and seafood, and I can cook.
- I can’t drive a tricycle well, I exert too much force on manibela.
- I am confident with my webmaster | wordpress | joomla and control panel skills. I have enough knowledge with photoshop, muvee, vegas, and audacity. I am also not prissy of boring and hard manual labor. I am not jack of all trades, but I am very well rounded and flexible. Work finds me.
- I sometimes wish I can multiply myself. There are just many things I want to do. Kagebunshin no jutsu!
- I am very irritable when I’m under pressure. I hate talking when I’m running for deadlines.
- When I look back at my past writings, they are full of errors. I have only developed my grammar during college.
- I choose not to read novels – i think it is a waste of time. I have read many novels in the past though, but now, I’m so busy at other things.
- I also think facebook games are a waste of time.
- When I was 2, I can’t remember anything even I had the baby pictures.
- When I was 3, I was afraid of policemen, and road rollers
- When I was 4, I was afraid of being castrated. They always tease me that they’ll castrate me.
- When I was 5, I was very protective of grandma’s stuff. I hate that other old lady from the neighborhood, that always go to our place and asks for grandma’s maskada
- When I was 6, I was afraid I won’t be able to marry someone when I get older because I don’t know how to court or I feel I would be ashamed to court anyone
- When I was 7, I was afraid proceeding to the next grade level because I heard pupils from higher class do multiplication and division – I don’t know how to divide or multiply numbers!
My father used to buy my exam scores if they are very good. If I don’t get a “very good” rating, I connive with a classmate who gets a “very good”, and change the name in his test paper – then we share the pay money. - When I was 8, I thought the earth is made of layers of flat lands and seas – where if you reach the edge – you can fall to the layer below.
- At his age, I also learned how to bike. My father taught me.
- When I was 9, I really thought robots exist. I see a colorful map of Panay and Region VI, and I thought the villains in TMNT must live somewhere there
- When I was 10, I am a superfan of Dragon Ballz. I use all my allowance to buy those curls and give them to my classmates, then I keep the free dragonball card.
- I learned to drive 4-wheels when I was 12.
- I learned to play chess when I was 15.
- I learned to play the guitar when I was 16.
- Other things about me, are still secrets. But you can try to anonymously ask me here.
